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Monday, January 16, 2012

This Ain't Gonna be Pretty - UPDATE: THANK YOU!!!

This is what it looks like when I start to break. It ain't gonna be pretty, but if I'm going down, I might as well share my meltdown here so you won't have to wonder where I went or what the happened, it will all be right here, and anyway, it's fun to watch other people crack, right?

Might as well throw in some breakdown music:



I love Alice Cooper, and everything is better with Muppets, even losing your freaking mind.

My Dental Hell/sinus infection is not getting any better; after the first round of antibiotics failed, they put me on another, stronger med, and I am halfway through the course of the new prescription and still in pain and sick. This thing is really kicking the life outta me! If this post turns out to be a garbled bunch of nonsense, I shall blame it on the mass of horribleness that feels like it is pressing on my brain by now and the accompanying intermittent fevers which continue to plague me.

My daughter, The Little Girl Resister, is very sick today. She woke up this morning and although she said she had a tummy ache, she wanted breakfast, so I gave it to her, and shortly thereafter she regurgitated it up all over my kitchen floor, and has continued vomiting throughout the day and into the night. The poor kid can't keep anything down, nor has she been able to make it to the bathroom in time (yes I gave her a bucket but she gets up anyway because she's a determined little child). So every 5-10 minutes or so since about seven this morning, I have been cleaning up big puddles of puke from the floor in pretty much every room. This is how bad it is: instead of yelling at them for being gross, I actually got to the point when I thanked my disgusting dogs for "helping" with the cleanup. Yep, because all I can do once it begins wherever she is standing is try to comfort her and keep her hair from getting barfed on again, as she has already needed to be washed twice today. And then once the throwing up is temporarily over, I carry her back to the couch or her bed, and then I proceed to get the disinfecting supplies out to sanitize, and every five minutes or so I give her a teeny bit of water or Pedialyte (which I was able to buy today thanks to a nice person who hit my Tip Jar - thanks!) and wait for the next round. It has been brutal for us both. Every hour or so she says she is hungry, but any nibble of anything no matter how bland, comes back up shortly after.

When I went to the store today to get the Pedialyte, I ran into another mom, who was there with her kids that happen to be my little girl's school friends. I mentioned that my girl was sick and when I said her name, one of her little friends told me that my daughter is "the smartest kid in school!" She really is such a good girl and a terrific student (she's in first grade). She's upset that she won't be going to school tomorrow, but it just started snowing here so maybe class will be canceled and my little over-achiever won't miss anything.

The non-stop cycle of sickness and cleaning up after said sickness has left me only a few minutes at a time to do anything else, which is why the A-C Page, which is normally very active, has no new posts today, in case you were wondering. 

Just to give you an idea of how sick my sweet girl is, it has taken me nearly six hours to write all of the above words due to the frequent need to stop to comfort her and to mop up vomit.

It has been very cold here, but luckily, we were able to fix the furnace and get the heat back on, but it came with a heavy price, which is that we didn't have any money left for the damned electric bill this month. I was hoping that they'd leave us be for a little while because they used to let folks alone in the middle of winter if you were a little late, but no such luck this time - they left me a lovely little note stuck to my front door while I was busy cleaning up puke today telling me that if I don't pay them by the end of the day tomorrow, they will shut us off the day after. We were already in a re-payment plan for past due + new charges because things have been so hard the past two years, but because we missed this last payment, they hold no quarter for us now. If we have no electric, not only does our oil heat not work, but the gas oven needs electric to make it go on and set the temperature so I'll only have the stove (which I can light with a match), and worse, because we are in a rural area and on a well, if the power goes out we will have no running water.

I was worried about my internet getting shut off next week, but figured if I sold some ads or something, I might be able to cover it, but that has become a moot point, because with no electric, that is gone too, and it is bundled with the phone service. I will of course go begging to the power company tomorrow and see if I can talk them into a partial payment, but they tend to ask for more than we have available, and at the moment, there ain't much available at all.

It didn't used to be this way! We were once (lower) middle class, we were never rich but we paid our bills on time, were able to put aside a little for savings and even could do fun stuff as a family once in a while. That was before Obamanomics took its toll on the country and our family, as I have explained previously.

If we end up in the dark, I'll take the kids to stay with family until we can get things sorted out, but I am really hoping that it doesn't come to that. Wish me luck.

So that's pretty much what I'm dealing with, I will not let the kids see me break, but they don't read this blog, so here are my guts spilt on this page just like so much of what I have been cleaning up from my sick kid.

Traffic has been been growing and remains steady even on days when I don't blog, I am forever amazed at how many old posts from my archives still find new readers and often wonder where those new people are finding my stuff from. My point in mentioning that is, of course, so people know that if they have ads here, or want to put ads here, they will still be seen! If you or someone you know has a business or organization that could use some reasonably priced advertising, please let them know that I offer custom made ads - but they need to get in touch with me soon, as I may be gone for a little while if I can't chase the wolves away again this time.

I have got to go tend to my girl, please say a little prayer that she gets better soon! If she isn't better tomorrow, we are going to the doctor, if she gets worse tonight, then it will be the ER (I truly hope it doesn't come to that, because now there is a full blown snow storm outside and the hospital 40 minutes away on a good day). I hate to see her so miserable, she is really such a sweet and good girl, it rips my heart right out knowing she is suffering.



May we all live to see better days and a strong America yet again. Thanks for reading, I love you all.


UPDATE - January 17, 2012:
You people are WONDERFUL! I am sorry that it has taken so long to update this post today, but the kids have kept me very busy and I have been trying to send out as many "thank you" emails as I can to those of you who helped every chance I got to sit down (I have been at it since this morning and am only about halfway done). I am overwhelmed with gratitude and relief and am struggling to find words to express how amazing I think you all are. THANK YOU from the very depths of my soul, it looks like we are going to be OK! The electric bill isn't just paid, but paid off, meaning that I was able to pay the whole thing so that next month we will just have a normal bill like everybody else without that snowballing "past due amount" adding so much extra burden to the thing and it is all because of you beautiful kind people. Thank you so very much! My little girl is doing better, she has been keeping down her liquids and some food and now just has a cough and a bit of a fever. Hopefully we have turned a corner on this thing, and I know it is because of your kind thoughts and prayers on our behalf. Thank you and God Bless you!

I still have many, many, more email thank you notes to send out, and I also need to update this post with links to the fabulous Bloggers who linked to me, but I am starting to fall asleep at my keyboard so I will need to do it in the morning, but please know that I am grateful beyond my ability to describe. THANK YOU!

Extra special thanks to Peter DaTechguy for letting everyone know about what was happening here, and a huge thank you to Professor Glenn Reynolds at Instapundit for sending an INSTALANCHE of kindness, good will, generosity and prayers!

You all have come to my rescue in a bigger way than I can ever have imagined. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! I will update more tomorrow, send more thank you emails to people who hit the tip jar, and link back to blogger friends who linked here, but now I need to hit the pillows, and I think I will sleep better than I have in a very long time, and it is all thanks to you. God bless you, and goodnight!




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52 comments:

BlueJeansandLace said...

((((hugs))) I'm sorry that it is going so rough. You are in my thoughts and your sweet little one is on my healing candle. Keep your chin up and know you are not alone.

Pat said...

Man...(((hugs)))

Linking in

Corbinian Lash said...

I'm sorry to hear that the antibiotics aren't doing the trick. I really thought you'd be better after a round of them. I sincerely hope readers will hit your tip jar and not just tell you it's going to be okay (no, it won't be okay without help). I remember years ago I  was helping a friend who was in a dire financial situation and she commented at one point that the worse part of it wasn't even the actual issue of being desperately broke and in legitimate need of even basic things, but that she couldn't take one more person saying things like "everything will work out" while not offering even one rent cent to actually HELP make "everything work out". It's a puzzling and disappointing side to human nature that we can say such empty, meaningless words with a straight face. I'm sure that many people are helping and they will be blessed for it.  

SignPainterGuy said...

Please fellow readers and fans of MareZillaMJ, PLEASE, hit the tip jar with any amount you can .... let`s help keep her lights and heat on and all the ancillary things that go with it !

I thank you all from the bottom of my heart !

Bic Yea said...

I hit the jar.. I know the feeling with the dental. I'm going through the same infection right now but i'm going for the PULL the minute this infection clears up!! Best of luck  to you...prayers

PaulLemmen said...

You and your family are in my prayers. I'll hit the tip jar after linking this post from one I just published about Granny Jan's newest video about the deceit of Barry and Co.  Good wishes to you and family!

Lorraine Spataro said...

I just stopped by to say hello - but after reading your comments here, I wanted you to know that you and your family will be in constant prayer.  I am retired and blogging, for me, isn't difficult; but for you, with a family and health issues, it must be beyond the pale with the burdens you carry on your shoulder.  I have posted this article on my newspaper, The Bee Sting Daily - made it the "feature" for today, with the hopes the hopes that others will graciously be able to assist you more than I can today.
http://paper.li/lsBeesting/1318824795?utm_source=subscription&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=paper_sub 

Secondly, in a moment, will post on my blog, Americans Stand with Israel.
http://americansstandwithisrael.blogspot.com/ 

For some reason, I did not sign in here properly .. and now you know, Bee's name is "Lorraine"!

Be blessed, always,
Bee Sting

Msjake said...

Yikes - that's awful! My 4 yr old daughter had the vomits last week too - I was doing the exact same thing only in the middle of the night! Hope everything turns out alright for you and your family! Stay strong!

FasterJags said...

Came over from instapundit and hit the tip jar. I've been up and down financially several times. Keep plugging away and good luck.

ThanksForSharing said...

Welcome to the Instalanche . . . Praying for you.

John said...

I've got a couple financial issues of my own just now, but the Halakhah is that even the man entirely dependent on tzedakah must nonetheless give tzedakah himself; I've kicked in a few bucks.

Dave in Dallas said...

Don't know you, never even read your blog, but..  "paying it forward", as they say, with modest PP donation today.  Blessings to you and your daughter, better days coming.

Dave in Dallas

Tom said...

God bless you and your family. Prayers - and a little cash - on its way to you today!

Tom

Patrick said...

Um, why was my comment removed from here? I did link in and offer to try and help.

Patrick said...

I mean, you put up a blog posting asking for help and I did offer to help. Is there a problem with you and me? If there is, let me know and I will remove my post.

Ben Hale said...

insty sent me.  hit the tip jar. good luck. 

MamaT said...

Came over from Instapundit.  Hit the tip jar.  Sorry it couldn't be more, but I hope even a little helps!

Greg said...

You are in my families prayers

Marian Booker said...

I'm new here, but saw your need on Instapundit and hit the tip jar.  Re your sinus infection, you might try taking a lot of raw garlic.  It is very powerful antiviral and antibiotic (known as the Russian Penecillin), and long ago stopped my repeated sinus infections which were getting worse with antibiotics.

It's a little like getting a hug from God, who provides powerful medicine that can be bought for 25 cents.  Chop up a clove, put it in a spoon and into your mouth, wash it down with water.  Make sure you have at least a piece of bread in your stomach, because garlic is a warming herb and may make an empty stomach too uncomfortable.  You can scramble eggs and stir it in to the finished eggs before you eat them. While you are trying to get well, eat it raw.  Later, you can cook it. Now you need it raw.  You are going to smell like garlic the first day, but in time, no one will notice it on your breath.

Chop it only when you're going to use it (don't make a quart jar of it ahead) because garlic oxidizes very quickly and loses its healing power rapidly.  Take one clove 3x a day for 10 days, see how you're doing.  You might get a lot of goo coming out of the sinuses - that's just fine.  Garlic is a blood thinner, so if you get nose bleeds, cut back a bit.  But stay on the garlic until you're better, even if you take some every day for a year.  Your health will benefit greatly from this.

MathMom said...

I'm new here, but saw your need on Instapundit and hit the tip jar.  Re your sinus infection, you might try taking a lot of raw garlic.  It is very powerful antiviral and antibiotic (known as the Russian Penecillin), and long ago stopped my repeated sinus infections which were getting worse with antibiotics.

It's a little like getting a hug from God, who provides powerful medicine that can be bought for 25 cents.  Chop up a clove, put it in a spoon and into your mouth, wash it down with water.  Make sure you have at least a piece of bread in your stomach, because garlic is a warming herb and may make an empty stomach too uncomfortable.  You can scramble eggs and stir it in to the finished eggs before you eat them. While you are trying to get well, eat it raw.  Later, you can cook it. Now you need it raw.  You are going to smell like garlic the first day, but in time, no one will notice it on your breath.

Chop it only when you're going to use it (don't make a quart jar of it ahead) because garlic oxidizes very quickly and loses its healing power rapidly.  Take one clove 3x a day for 10 days, see how you're doing.  You might get a lot of goo coming out of the sinuses - that's just fine.  Garlic is a blood thinner, so if you get nose bleeds, cut back a bit.  But stay on the garlic until you're better, even if you take some every day for a year.  Your health will benefit greatly from this.

Insty-reader #716834 said...

$30

leelu said...

I set up a link to your blog from mine, and kicked in a wee bit.

Bless you and yours.

Micha_Elyi said...

My parish's conference (chapter) of the St. Vincent de Paul Society has helped a lot of people who've gotten a 3-day shut off notice from the local electric utility.  (Yes, they help Catholics too!)  Every conference of Vincentians is as unique as a fingerprint but a call to the one in your area won't be time wasted.
Your daughter's symptoms are similar to what a relative's family recently suffered.  It was diagnosed as a novovirus - a.k.a. the cruise ship disease.  Viruses laugh at antibiotics.

flyoverpilgrim said...

Dear, dear Zilla...
I understand what you are going through. I, too, have had wolves at the door, sick family, dental nightmares...try not to panic, dear girl.

I hit the tip jar, I hope all who reads your post do the same.

Pilgrim.

Susan said...

Made donation, will link this piece- prayers to you.

Zilla of the Resistance said...

Patrick, thank you for blogging on my behalf! I don't know what happened to your first comment, Blogger shows it in the backroom area of the dashboard, but it never made it into DISQUS for some reason. I am not ignoring you, but my little girl needs me like every five seconds so it has been hard for me to keep up with everything else. Thank you again for your help, I appreciate it and more importantly, I am glad that you are my friend. (((hugs)))

Ronsbloviating said...

Linked http://ronsbloviating.blogspot.com/2012/01/zilla-of-resistance-this-aint-gonna-be.html  Praying that things get better.

Zilla of the Resistance said...

It really does! Thank you! :)

Ddbedgetx said...

Zilla, Instapundit posted about your problems, I hope u get an Instalanche. I'm a grandma now, but when my son was young & I was a single parent I went through something similar....it was while Carter was president - big surprise. My circumstances aren't so great right now, but I can go without something and spare $15. Not much, but maybe with some more tips, $5 here, $15 there, it will build up. Hang in there! --Edgelady in Texas

Burt Z said...

Zilla, Just hit your tip jar with $100....hope it helps!  Take care of yourself and that little girl!

David Gano Wrone said...

I shipped you some PayPal cabbage earlier today. You're having a heckuva time, but things will get better!

Mean Granny said...

Came from Instapundit too, and also hit the tip jar.  Hang in there, kiddo!  I'll be praying for you.  Hope your little girl is doing better now. 

Ray said...

First time I saw your blog...heard about your trouble from Instapundit.  I sent a bit to help, I hope it's enough.

TheOldMan said...

Many years ago, one of my boys was very ill. Throat closed up, could not drink water, difficulty breathing. He was almost 3 at the time. Blood test revealed nothing of interest, he could sleep an hour or so at a time, he was at the point of being admitted for dehydration. Then he asked me to make crepes, one of his favorite things to eat. He tried to help make them but was too exhausted. In the evening he ate one, stayed down, ate another one, that night he slept perhaps five hours, and then got slowly better. We never determined what was wrong.

It's always worse when your children are sick, you prefer that you be ill instead. Your little one will get better.

Patrick said...

No problem. No Worries. :)

Rich Vail said...

Zilla, it's not much, but I hope it helps...please let me know if there's anything I can do.  I've posted your tip jar on my blog as well.  I hope it helps.  Glenn R...the blog father has a post up as well.

Laurajalcorn said...

RichmondPatriots.ning.com sent out your 'tinkle post' yesterday.
laurajalcorn@gmail.com

warren said...

It's simple.  Been there, know how it feels, hit the tip jar.  Hang in there, Zilla.

OleERdoc said...

The sheriff (Glenn R) sent me here.
Don't know you but the sheriff says "do it".
Watching your girl get dehydrated must be the worst.
Best of luck to you two.

Gregoryno6 said...

Any friend of Bob Belvedere's is a friend of mine.
I left something in the tip jar, I hope it helps.

PaulLemmen said...

Good news! The best kind of people ALWAYS come through for a person in need.

Bob said...

Very sorry your daughter is feeling unwell.

Here's a link to how to make your own Pedialyte substitute:

http://voices.yahoo.com/how-homemade-pedialyte-3644677.html

The important stuff:

1 tsp baking soda, 5 or 6 tsp sugar, 1 packet of Kool-Aid mix for flavoring, and ½ tsp salt.

Gunny G said...

Thank God all is well.

davidc said...

Hope you and your little one are doing better !

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Amusing Bunni said...

Hi Zilla, I'm so happy things are improving for you.  I hope you and your little one is feeling better.  Take Care of yourselves.

Peg Conroy said...

Mare, so glad things are better and I'm so sorry I missed it all and could not commiserate.  What a truly horrific week you went through.  Glad everyone is better - you are also, right???  OMG and I complain when I have to clean up all the cat puke.  Moms who are sick and have to tend sick kids should all get gold medals.  It's hell!  TAKE CARE!!  :-) 

Peg Conroy said...

BTW, you won't believe how I found you this time (even though you're bookmarked).  I was following a link in a comment by 1389Blog on a piece at PJ Media on the dire economics 0bama has to run on, which took me to Counterjihad, which showed me an ad for "Zilla Awards 2011 Winner."  Still not sure what that is but here I landed :-D  And the lefties in Congress want to kill all these linky thingies that make our Intertubes so much fun.  ARGH!

Zilla of the Resistance said...

Heh. That would be the First Annual Zilla Awards for Awesomeness in the Dextrosphere, here:
http://zillablog.marezilla.com/2012/01/welcome-to-first-annual-zilla-awards.html
You should check it out, I bet you'll find some new places that you will like! 

Zilla of the Resistance said...

Thanks, Peg! Everyone is better except me, I am on my 3rd round of antibiotics for the dental/sinus thing and now it seems that some of the cooties have found their way to my lungs. I could live with the pain, but the on & off fevers and chills are killing me! At least my lights & internet will stay one, and with that, I can survive anything.

Peg Conroy said...

Will do and I know I will!  :-)

Peg Conroy said...

Good lord, I am so sorry to hear that!!  Ed and Robyn have been fighting the lingering effects of a head and chest cold for nearly 4 weeks, after they both seemed like they'd be over it in a week.  Johnathan got it and ended up with an ear infection and antibiotics, at 10 months old.  Sigh!  These winter things are the worst.  But you are far sicker :-(  I'm scared of antibiotics and they are no fun, so I hope you hang in there are recover after this round!  And stay warm as much as possible!  It's too bad you can't just take to the sheets and stay there.  Running around after the kids just runs you down and extends these things...

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