Saturday - Birthday Weekend Mood Swings

Day two of the birthday weekend. My birthday is tomorrow. Husband had to go away for business so it's just me and the kids.
I went to my neighbor's massive party and it is awesome over there, but nerve wracking for me to try to keep both little kids (girl, 6, boy 3 and a little OCD) out of trouble. Daughter enjoyed the giant inflatable waterslide, and both kids jumped around on the big bouncy jousting thing when the bigger kids weren't using it, heck I jumped around with them too, and the live band is kickass, but I could not sit and eat or drink anything due ot he need to chase the kids - there's like over 100 people there and the crowd is growing and I don't want to lose sight of my babies, so we came back home after my little boy threw a tantrum when the big kids wanted the jousting ring back, and then I went quickly back once the kids were indoors to grab some take out cotton candy & snow cones to make everyone stop crying.

Between tantrums (there's, OK, maybe mine a little too)  I've been teaching the children to appreciate  good music. The three year old can now sing the chorus to Rock the Casbah by The Clash, which is posted HERE. Then the kids started talking about the three little pigs, so I played them some of this and taught them to do the chorus:



That was fun, but they are back to being moody and I am really hoping that husband comes back soon, I even did something I rarely do if nothing is on fire and nobody's bleeding, I called him and asked him to come home, because I am getting cranky.

There is a big open field at the front of our property, and we let the neighbor's guest use it for parking every year when he does his blowout shindigs, but a little while ago someone parked on my front freaking lawn instead of in the big freaking field and that annoys me. Then they started coming to the top of my driveway and attempting to park in the back of my house - NOT COOL. I've got little kids and pets and I don't want partiers all up on top of us here. My house is about a quarter mile from the road and there is still plenty of room in the front field, these people do not need to be on my damned lawn or on top of my house!

Yesterday I was in a bad mood before I decided to post something fun, but here's what I had originally started to write last night and those feelings are back again...

I can kind of identify with the feelings expressed in this video:



I am cranky. Now don't worry, I'm not about to go mashing stuff up, but I understand what it feels like to want to.

I suffer from SDDTB - Situational Depression Due To Brokeness. Most days I can stuff it down into a dark little ball of anxiety and cram it into some little corner of my head. I also suffer from birthday related malaise due to the long chain of crappy things that tend to have happened to me on or very close to my birthday, like that thing that happened 20 years ago , nearly to the day that I wrote about HERE. These two conditions are generally temporary, one is easily remedied by momentary periods of not being broke, the other only comes once a year. Separately they are manageable, but together, well, let me just apologize in advance for any excessive crankiness if it is not directed at those who deserve it such as islamonazis and leftists for the next few days.

At least I am not alone in the first malady, Stacy McCain appears to have been dealing with a bout of SDDTB lately too. Put the two disorders together at the same time, and you get a moody, cranky Zilla. Of course there is a treatment, and that is, as Stacy says, for folks to "hit the freaking tip jar", which also happens to be a great way to wish a girl a happy Birthday and may help thwart the second condition by enabling me to buy some things, like food, or a new briefcase like the one on my wish list.

I think maybe I may also have a lil green monster in my head, there are hundreds of people parking in my front yard for somebody else's birthday party while I am home alone with the kids and they are moody too. My little girl wants to go back to the party, but I can't go back there with my son unless I have another grown up - it's just too much. Husband was surprised to hear from me, I told him that I hope he'll talk tot he neighbors because I have a problem with being seen as being a total bitch when I am not trying to be one, something to do with the Long Island Noo Yawka accent, perhaps. I did ask one person to refrain from joining the other cars on my front freaking lawn, and when somehow it slipped out that this is my birthday weekend, it was all I could do to not bawl in front of these people. Birthday's are hard, being broke is hard, the two put together and me home alone with cranky little people while depression decides to rear it's ugly head just sucks.

Thank you to all of you nice people who have wished me a happy birthday on Twitter and in my comments thread HERE, it really means a lot to me!The band is really awesome, even in my house with the windows closed & AC on, I can hear them, they are playing Led Zeppelin right now and doing a great job of it!

Zep always cheers me up, and husband will be home soon, hopefully my mood will swing back the other way soon. I'm generally a pretty stable person, but like I said, it's a double whammy of buzz kills right now. I'll be back to normal on Monday, going after the CRAPTASTICs, the jihadis and their treasonous enablers like I always do. If yo haven't already shut down your browser tab on this page in disgust, I thank you for letting me ventilate, it does help ya know. Sorry to be such a weirdo, hope ya still respect me in the morning.

Anyway, here's some music, I hope you like it as much as I do:

Led Zeppelin - In my Time of Dying



Led Zeppelin - When The Levee Breaks



Led Zeppelin - The Rain Song



Yep, Zep always makes me feel better, all of you do too. Husband just got home, and then left to go to the party by himself for a little while. I was hoping he'd take daughter over, but he wants to eat, so I'll take her when he comes back, he can stay with the boy who will hopefully be going to sleep soon since he stayed up late and has been awake since 5 am (which might have something to do with my moodiness as I can't sleep when he doesn't sleep). I want to go and see the band and eat some food and pretend that the party is really for me, daughter wants to eat and enjoy the giant water slide, bouncy stuff and pool. She's good, if it's just me & her I can relax so long as she is in eye-shot.  Since I began this post, the people have moved off my damned front lawn. Now if the kids would stop their whining, it'll all be gravy! Have a great night, y'all, thanks for stopping by.

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